.


i wanna be drunk when i wake up
on the right side of the wrong bed
and never an excuse i made up
tell you the truth i hate
what didn't kill me
it never made me stronger at all.
love will scar your make-up,lip sticks to me
so now i maybe lean back there
i'm sat here wishing i was sober
i know i'll never hold you like i use to.

but a house gets cold when you cut the heating
without you to hold i'll be freezing
can't rely on my heart to beat in
cause you take parts of it every evening
take words out of my mouth just from breathing
replace with phrases like when you're leaving me.

should i, should i?
maybe i'll get drunk again
i'll be drunk again
i'll be drunk again
to feel a little love


.


The shape of sleepy music




Today, you'll make me say
that i somehow have changed
today, you'll look into my eyes
i'm just not the same
to be any more that all i am
would be a lie









only yesterday was the time of our lives

i can imagine beeing about 40, and looking for him again, and turning up he's settled and he's got a beautiful wife and some beautiful kids and im still on my own

- adele



just memories i dont want to forget


I remember last summer, you and me driving aimlessly on those english country roads.
windows down with cheesy music as background noise, laughing at nothing at all.
I've never felt happiness so real, and never before had i felt so utterly in love with you as in that moment.

I also remember the first time i met you, at heathrow airport.
I was so shy that when i saw you i hid behind a pillar for a couple of minutes before i could find the courage to walk up to you. I knew id love you no matter how you looked irl, because you had already won me over with your amazing personality.

On the tube back to london, that was packed with people so we had to stand up.
You stood next to me, i kept trying to secretly look at you. but every time i did, i caught you looking at me.

I remember brushing my hand against yours on the night train back to your town, not knowing if i should take your hand in mine and i ended up just resting my hand awkwardly next to yours.

That first night..


But most of all i remember how you could make me laugh so much that my stomach hurt,
how safe i felt in your arms knowing that whatever happened in my life i would always have you.
How you always told me what you felt, regardless if it was good or bad.
How you could just burst out dancing in the middle of the street if you where happy.


I remember how i use to give you a quick kiss, 
and you'd kiss me back and with that the biggest kissing-war was created.



the though of you making those kind of memories with someone else in the future makes me feel ill.
knowing that someone else makes you so happy you burst out dancing, or that she gets my kisses..







just come back, you are worth every mile between us



my insides





if feels just like death but without that sleeping part